mirage

I love you in a mirage
The closer i am from you
The further it seems to me from me
Its not the distance that i travel
Its not the hardships that i face
But its the travesties that i create
To conceal what is in me
All this for you
Since i love you in a mirage...
The sand below my feet is burning
But its nothing as compared to the fire that burns me
Everytime i see a glimpse so near
Just to find its not near but far
Were you there i ask in disbelief
Or was I in delirium
When my disillusioned self returns to sense
I realise it was not you but the mirage
As i love you in a mirage
I fear i might lose my sentient self chasing you
You who created this illusion of your being here
Even though my councious self pulls me towards your absence
Its this mirage that has created your presence
As i try to dispell this mirage
I realise i cannot remove this disillusionment
My delirium is to stay with me
I am going to stay the way i am
Pulling myself toward my self incarceration
Incarcerated not by you whom i love
but by the mirage
As i loved you not for what you are
But the mirage of what you are
And now i fear of what you are
As every fear needs a company
I have made this mirage my friend
Its where i feel you the closest
Its where i feel your warmth
Since I love you but in a mirage