Mist and Hope !!!

Last two months i have sensed how things change up.Even before I knew what had happened time made a shift.Flashback to two months back i would probably be sitting in my cubicle cracking my head over some problem.Trying to make sense of what is happening to my life with each day spending 16 hours in office.And then you get hit by a bolt of lightning and you see a phase shift in your world.The picture is still vivid in me when i was happy jumping up and down celebrating,enjoying and singing.But once the excitement and anxiety dies down we again end up at the same place.My place never changed in this world i was the same what i was before.
Before my eyes people try to veil a different picture , a picture where there is a systematic change in my existence.The view is so grandeur i try to see the same in eyes of every other man.A picture which i cannot see the harder i try to see the more lost i feel in it.I question does it exist or is it like one of those experiences that one gets after being intoxicated ,the more i try to move the slower i feel of the world.And in this picture where i donot see anything except the mist i try to figure out where I am either i can sit here and let the mist settle down or start taking steps move forward.
Stopping here yes but will this mist clear?Time will make it much denser hence the vision more bleaker.I deciede to move , but where do i go?Nothing makes sense except the mist.....I donot know what it is but the more i think the denser it grows.I feel a multitude of emotions fear of the unknown , loneliness , confused of the change still trying to be courageous to wade off these feelings and fight what may come!!!
I look at the sky for possible direction but find none!!!Feel betrayed by the manly and heavenly....Can i reach somewhere or is it my rigidness will decay me and my spirit in this place??Am i going to be lost in the mist or get out and see the valley which i dream is tranquil , serene where i see the green pines standing tall, the grass dancing with the wind and the wind beaconing me to come and lie here.With these thought i fall not knowing of tomorrow but falling today with the hope that i will see the light tomorrow............